For
a child, his father is a Hero, children grow idealizing their Hero, look up to
him for their demands, wonder how he could hide emotions with an ease, respect
how he became a self-made man, inspire from his early struggles. My childhood
was no different. But I never had to
demand anything from You, I got everything what I wanted at right time. It has been 25 odd years, I am living this
life because of You. I may not have sit with You and convey how special are You
for me. May be I was shy enough to express my feeling or strong enough to hide
my emotions. There were many instances, I wanted to share, but couldn’t, there
were many apprehensions I wanted to discuss, but couldn’t. I thought writing a
letter to You will be the perfect thing. Today I not only wanted to Thank You
from core of my heart but wanted to say something more…..
I
remember, the first letter I wrote to you when I was in 12th class,
first time I was living away from You.
I
scored low grades in 10th class, I was not getting admission in good
school, You alongwith fathers of many other children initiated which resulted
into addition of one more Section in the school.
I
could not forget that iconic moment when I scored 90% marks in 12th
and I overheard You saying to Mom, ‘Nikhil ne to tod diya record’. This
is my happiest moment till date.
You
never imposed your opinions on me, you always let me do what I wanted to.
When
I wanted to leave job and take risk of exploring other options, You always supported
me and didn't stop me to doing that.
You
were always critical of me, which kept me grounded, pushed me more to achieve
greater heights, inspired me to keep doing challenging things.
People
appreciate me for my attitude, goodness, trustworthiness. I know for sure, that
was because of You and Mom, who nurtured me like that.
Whenever
I feel low, I recall an example you always used to cite me, quoting it:
Life is like a game
of lawn tennis, you have to earn points at every stage. You may lead or trail behind.
If you lose, it’s not over, try and try. If you have an advantage, it doesn't
mean to sit idle and remain satisfied, you have to capitalize this in your
favour. Because Advantage and Loss both are temporary.
And
Trust me, it makes me happy again.
You
are self-made man. You are one of the best negotiators I have ever come across.
I respect you for the position you have reached into your life.
I
still remember, you were the first one who admired my writing skills and
encouraged me to take it seriously.
You
must be having some expectations from me of which You have all the right. I may
not have fulfilled all or even any of them. But trust me I am trying to make
them happen.
There
may be situations where I may have outspoken you and hurt you, but that was purely
out of impulsion and I feel heartfelt sorry for it.
Whatever
You have done for me, I can’t even imagine to payback a fraction of it, but
still I will try to do that.
That’s
all I have to say. I hope You take it in good spirits.
Its’s
PayBackTime
With
Love
You
Son
Nikhil
Disclaimer:
This is not a letter to publicize my
affection to my Dad, it’s just a voice of writer who represents many sons and
daughters who always wanted to sit, talk and convey something to their Dads but
busy lives didn’t let it happen.
